My goals and aspirations

Considering my days are filled with sitting on the couch feeding the twins I get a lot of time to think lately. So I now have many goals that I wish to fulfill, hopefully I succeed.

Goal 1 - Clean out my office!
When I fully return to work, (which considering I work from home should be when the boys have started having solid blocks of sleep) I want to do so with a clear mind, a room where my materials each have a place they belong not like now where it is major disorganisation!
Once  I have boxed everything up my wonderful husband is building a new desk and storage system for me. I'll make sure to post some before and after pics!

Goal 2 - Return to work!
I cannot wait to be able to return to work and the beauty of my job, I get to stay home with my babies but right now it is impossible to create invitations, canvases etc whilst I am feeding so much. When I do return I want to be busy! I have huge plans for lots of new designs and a more efficient way of working, I don't want to be a small time business, what I what is for my business to make me an income, I want to say goodbye to centrelink and earn some real money and do all the things we dream of - buy a house, new car, holidays - all the good stuff!

Goal 3 - Take of with The Body Shop At Home!
As well as my business I run from home I am also a consultant with The Body Shop At Home and have an absolute ball partying! The body shops core values are truly inspirational.
Against animal testing
Support community trade
Activate self esteem
Defend human rights
Protect our planet

What great values to have! I believe in and support each one of those so the body shop is the perfect job for me plus there are a number or campaigns the body shop are behind which are also really rewarding to be a part of such as:
Childwise: Body shop has a product called Soft ands Kind Heart which is a hand cream and 100% of te proceeds go towards childwise who protect children in Cambodia from human trafficking, sexual abuse and slavery and for just $10.95 its a very worthwhile buy not to mention the product is great!
Like the last goal as I've had the twins I haven't been able to party and I really miss it! But now I have to start again searching for people to have parties, so I am going to flick through the catalogue and find some nice goodies to buy to thank people for holding parties and supporting me getting back into the workforce.

Goal 4 - Operation house 180!
As the title suggests I want to flip my house around! It's been the wrong way for far too long and things need to change! Obviously my house won't be spotless for many years and I don't expect it to be with 4 young children but I do want it to be clean and tidy and will be setting up some sort of routine which also gets the kids (plus hubby!) picking up after themselves and carrying out small chores. Then we can work on making the house look nicer with some little luxeries such as a new TV!

Thats my goals for now :) Thanks for reading!

An amazing 24 hours

The last 24 hours have been wonderful. First of all in the very early hours of the morning when I should have been sleeping instead of on facebook as the boys were sleeping I was talking to a friend in the UK who has a beautiful 6 week old baby girl and like me had troubles breastfeeding her first 2 children but I, yes me, has inspired her to feed this time around and she is loving it.
I'm so proud of her and myself, I am really happy, happy that our babies are being given this wonderful gift, happy that I have inspired someone to breastfeed, little old me!! I dont even know how to describe how I feel but I LOVE it, I know now I have to persue this and inspire and help others.

The other great thing that happened today was my daughter meeting up with her grandparents after a few years of not seeing them, they were so happy, we were so happy ... it was magical. My ex mother in law is a wonderful woman despite what happened between me and her son I always felt a closeness to her she helped me through a lot and Id love to continue to be a regular part of there lives with my daughter and hopefully one day her dad will realise what hes missing out on as our daughter is the most precious, intelligent, smart, funny little thing - i love you bear!

9 and a half weeks later

and Im still in love! I have never been so close to any of my babies the feeling is undescribable. As I've said in previous comments breastfeeding was miserable with my girls but the twins are still loving the boob, Lleyton would be there all day if you let him.
It's still hard to believe it's more than 2 months since these wonderful creations entered the world and because of that i have found a meaning in my life, something I not only want to do but HAVE to do and will do with pride - even if nobody listens haha!
What I am meant to do is share my story and my experiences with others and help them. I want to inspire those having multiples, those having singletons, family, friends of anyone having a baby or babies to know that even if all has failed before there is hope, you can succeed. I want to help and teach those who have a wonderful road ahead.
I'm not sure how to do it exactly! Hopefully just reading my blog will help some, others may email but I'll have to think of ways to reach out. The joy I have from this experience I simply cannot keep to myself it must be shared!